old and lonely

Every day I come here to write a new post.I've managed to write a few, which i deleted the minute i finished writing them. Every one of them was about one of the two thoughts dominating my mind nowadays.


Today I decided to say them loud and clear may be I can get them out of my system, so here it is:


I am old and lonely


I am old and lonely


I am old and lonely


I am old and lonely


I am old and lonely


the old part i may come over when I start feeling better (Physically I mean)

As for the loneliness, I don't know how i will manage. I know I don't act like people do when they feel lonely but I really am...I feel lonlely to the extent that I don't want any one in. You know the times you get too tired that you can't sleep or too hungry that you can't imagine that you can go through the process of eating, I feel lonely to the extent that I don't want to talk to any of those who used to know me and get to me.

I just want it to end!